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only theatre of pain
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"No Tears for the Creatures of the Night!"
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Downey,CALIFORNIA
United States
Last Online: 08/26/2006 4:55 pm
Last Update: 05/20/2006 1:33 pm
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Morning Sex!!! (better than coffee, I love it!!!). camping, sado-masochistic behaviour, sound of wind, Mans best friend, A long spectrum of Fetishes, Curry, Gibson Guitars, Jeeps, the point of a needle, Ninjas and Samurai, Standing in the rain, Appreciating beauty for what it truely is; not mistaken by perversion, Movies, Love in a sad song, piercings, the Occult, Art, Sexcapades, Music, b/w photo (dead trees), Typography, Kinkiness, Outer Space, The Twilight Zone, Porno, Road Trips, knives and swords, Design, Barrier Reef, Beer, Chess, Japanese Rope Bondage, Erotica, black leather, vintage 4x4's, bloodletting, Darkness, Strobe lights, silver, Monkey boots, Tattoos, Macintosh, Mucha, Dark Obsessions, Biting, Breakfast (eggs overeasy, sausage, hash browns, Rye toast & pancakes!!), Portuguese language, Non square lovers, Japanese language and Old ways, the great wall of China, Lingerie, Cello's, Nail scratches, The Northern Lights, Ethnic Food, Giant Redwood Trees, The Oceans Abyss, Vinyl, existentialism, Movies, Master and Servant, Anime, cooking, hot chocolate, romance, dark hallways, empty streets, Pulling hair, Sausage Egg Mcmuffins, Pizza!!, Sushi!!!, Art, Architecture, Traveling, scary adventures, candlelight, candlelight dinners, Jalape�o Poppers, Cold Stone Ice Cream, Art Nouveau, discovering a simple pleasure, making small things count, true love... and more things.
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Im just gonna copy and paste my MP3 collection from my comp. Some may be douubled... you know how it is!!!, its alot, but if you want to read them all... be my guest... Switchblade Symphony, Duran duran, Tuxedomoon, The Stranglers, Big Black, Rudimentary Peni, Super Heroines, Tones on Tail, Ariel Pink, Ausgang, Leather Strip, Spanking Machine, Alien Skull Paint, Wired Remorse, Red Lorry Yellow Lorry, Zyklon-B, Yo La Tengo, Yes, yeah yeah yeahs, XTC, Xmal Deutschland, Woven Hand, Wolfsheim, Willard Grant Conspiracy, Will Oldham, Wilco, Weird War, Ween, Weather Report, Waterline Drift, The Waitresses, The Volta Sound, The Verve, The Velvet Underground, The Vanishing, The Unicorns, The Soundtrack Of Our Lives, The Soundhead, The Softies, The Snakes, The Smiths, The Sleepy Jackson, The Situation, The Sisters of Mercy, The Shroud, The Sea And Cake, The Thrills, The Telescopes, The Supremes, the sundays, the sugarcubes, the roots, The Rolling Stones, The Residents, The Ramones, The Pogues, The Pixies, The Phantom Limbs, The Mars Volta, The Kills, The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion, The Black Heart Procession, The Black Crowes, The Birthday Party, The Birds, The Beta Band, The Beach Boys, The Be Good Tanyas, Tears For Fears, teardropcity, Tarentel, Talk Talk, Taake, T.Rex, Syd Barrett, The Beastie Boys, sword of the berzerk soundtrack, Swirlies, Swans, Steppenwolf, Steely Dan, Starlight Mints, Stan Getz &; Joao Gilberto, St. Etienne, Sugarcubes, Suede, Steven Malkmus, Stereolab, Spiritualized, Sparklehorse, Spain, Spacemen 3, Soundhead, Sonic Youth, Nick Cave &; Tom Waits &; The Bad Seeds, Nick Cave and Lydia Lunch, Nick Cave &; The Bad Seeds, New York Dolls, New Order, Tones on Tail, Tom Waits, Tom Petty, Tindersticks, Tim Buckley, Thorns, Thompson Twins, This Mortal Coil, Thievery Corporation, The Young Lovers, The White Stripes, The Warlocks, The Walkabouts, The Jimi Hendrix Experience, The Jesus and Mary Chain, The Jayhawks, The Innocence Mission, the hi_losouls, The Damned, The Clientele, The Church, The Charlatans, the chameleons uk, The Cardigans, The Byrds, The Brian Jonestown Masssacre, The Cure, The Cult, the creatures, The cramps, The Cox Family, The Beatles, My Morning Jacket, My Bloody Valentine, Muslimgauze, Mr. Bungle, Motorpsycho, Motorhead, Morrissey, Morphine, Moose, Moonspell, Monster Magnet, Mojave 3, Mogwai, Modest Mouse, Moby, Mitch Hedberg, Missy Elliott, Miles Davis &; John Coltrane, Miles Davis, Mike Patton &; John Zorn, Mike Patton, Midnight Orchestra, Michel Thomas, Metallica, Mercury Rev, Mephisto Walz, Kid Loco, Kelis, Manowar, Kate Bush, Juno Reactor, june, Joy Division, Joni Mitchell, Johny Cash, Johnny Pate, The Mamas &; The Papas, The Magnetic Fields, The Lilys &; Aspera Ad Astra, The lilys, The Legendary Pink Dots, The Future Sound Of London, The Handsome Family, The Go, The Flying Burrito Bros, Joey, Joe Henry, JJ Johnson, Jimmy Smith, Jimi Hendrix, Jim O_Rourke, Jesu, Jessamine, Jerry Douglas, Jefferson Airplane, Jeff Buckley, Janis Joplin, Janes Addiction, Jamiroquai, James Taylor, jaffa, Jack Johnson, Ivy, Iron Maiden, Iron And Wine, Invisible Compilations, Interpol, In Flames, Iggy Pop and the Stooges, iggy pop, IDX1274, ides of space, Idaho, Hrsta, Hopkinson Smith, Hope Sandoval And The Warm Inventions, Hocico, Henry Mancini, Hellpop, Hayden, Hawkwind, Happy Mondays, Hank Williams, Guns N' Roses, Griffin Technology, Greatful Dead, Greater than One, Grauzone, Os Mutantes, orb, Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan And Diam, Nurse with Wound &; Current 93, Now It's Overhead, Orbital, Pins &; Needles, Nitzer Ebb &; Front 242, peter murphy, Papa M, nitzer ebb, Nitelighters, Nirvana, nikka costa, Nine Inch Nails, Nina Simone, Nick Lowe, Mars Volta, Masada, Marylin Manson, Marvin Gaye, Marmoset, Marc Ribot &; Los Cubanos Postizos, Maestro Echoplex, Madrugada, Madonna, Lupine Howl, Lovetones, Love &; Rockets, Love, Sly &; The Family Stone, Slowdive, Sloan, Slayer, Skinny Puppy, Sixteen Horsepower, Sisters Of Mercy, Siouxie And The Banshees, Simon &; Garfunkel Sigur Rós, Sidney Bechet, Shadow Project, Sex Gang Children, Seth, Sea Ray, Screaming Trees, Psychedelic Furs, Primal Scream, Prince, Portishead, Kraftwerk, Placebo, Pixies, Pompeii 99, Phish, phantom limbs, Pink Floyd, David Sylvian &; Robert Fripp, Drunk, Fu Manchu, FSOL, Front Line Assembly, Front 242, Franz Ferdinand, Something About Vampires and Sluts, Soft Cell, Snoop Doggy Dog, sneaker pimps, smog, Smiths, Smashing Pumpkins, Smallstone, Red House Painters, Red Hot Chili Peppers, red ant comp 97, Ray Barretto, Rasputina, Rainywood, Radiohead, R.E.M_, Quincey Jones, Queens Of The Stone Age, Quannum, Pussy Galore, pumalin, Psychotic Youth The Apples In Stereo, Teenage Fanclub, Psychic TV, Van Der Graaf Generator, Urge Overkill, Underworld, Ultra Vivid Scene, tribe called quest, Townes Van Zandt, Tortoise, Tori Amos, Schoenberg, Arnold, Satanic Surfers, San, Samael, sade, Ryan Adams, Ry Cooder, Rurals, Rufus Wainwright, Royal Trux, Roy Orbison, Roy Ayers, Rollerskate Skinny, Ride, Revolting Cocks, Reverend Horton Heat, Red House Painters, Vivaldi - Il Giardino Armonico, Velvet Underground, Velvet Revolver, Velvet Acid Christ, Vanishing, Vangelis, Van Morrison, The Flaming Lips, the filmstrip, The Ecstasy of Saint Theresa, The Dust Brothers, The Doors, The Divine Comedy, the death blossoms, The Danse Society, The Dandy Warhols, Warlocks, Volcano, I'm Still Excited!!, Vocal Skit, Vlad Tepes, Attrition, Atomic Bitchwax, Electric Masada, Naked City w_Mike Patton, Biosphere, Bill Frisell, At The Gates, Astrud Gilberto, Eminem, Elvis Presley, Elvis Costello &; The Imposters, Aimee Mann, Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds, Nick Drake, Dramarama, Gene Loves Jezebel, Garbage, Gang Of Four, Funkstörung, Funker Vogt, ..And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead, Blur, Bloody, Dead &; Sexy, Dreadful Shadows, Dr. Dre, Doves, _the smiths, Frank Zappa, Frank Sinatra, Foo Fighters, Flying Saucer Attack, Flying Burrito Bros, Bigod 20, Beyoncé, David Bowie, Elliott Smith Electric Soft Parade, Melissa Auf Der Maur, Mazzy Starr, Mayhem, Massive Attack, Masada String Trio_ Feldman, Friedlander, Cohen, boingo, Bob Dylan + Johnny Cash, A Silver Mt. Zion Memorial Orchestra &; Tra-La-La Band, Donovan, DMZ, DJ Shadow, Crazy Horse, Grateful Dead, Grant Lee Buffalo, Grandaddy, Gram Parsons, Gorillaz, Gomez, Goldie Lookin' Chain, Goldfrapp, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Demonix, Gitane Demone, Gillian Welch, Gilles Peterson, George Jones, Al Green, Bright Eyes, Bright Black, Dee-Lite, death in june, David Torn, Eric, Joey, Darius, Eric, Entertainment, Emmylou Harris, Broadcast, Brightblack, Lou Reed, loop, London After Midnight, Lilys, Libertines, Legendary Pink Dots, Lee Hazlewood, Led Zeppelin, LCD featuring Gitane DeMone, Last, Blondie, Blonde Redhead, Berserk - game, Ben Harper, A.R.E. Weapons, aerosmith, Curtis Mayfield, Crosby, Stills, Nash &; Young, 50 Cent, Floorian, Fleetwood Mac, Faith No More, Faith &; The Muse, Ethan Hawk, Chris Isaak, Chicks On Speed vs. Malaria, John Zorn, John Thomas, John Lennon - The John Lennon Collection, John Frusciante, John Coltrane, Neil Young, Edwin Starr, Echo &; the Bunnymen, Phallus Dei, Polvo, Peace Orchestra, Pavement, Penny Goodwin, Patrick Park, PALE SAINTS, Palace Music, Palace Brothers, palace, ozzy osborne, outkast, My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult, Deutsch Amerikanische Freundschaft, The Stooges, Compilations, Coldplay, cocteau twins, CocoRosie, Änglagård, Audioslave, Barry Adamson, Bar Kokhba Sextet, No More, cranes, Cranberries, Dead Panda, Dead Meadow, dead can dance, Badly Drawn Boy, Bad Religion, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Black Mountain, Black Dice, Björk, Beulah, Beth Gibbons &; Rustin' Man, Artist, Belle &; Sebastian, Bella Morte, Dinosaur Jr, Demonix, Deee-lite, Bob Dylan, Boards Of Canada, 2Pac, Ash Ra Tempel, 808 State, Charlemagne, Chapterhouse, Air, Catherine Wheel, Cat Power, _Spacemen 3, Arab Strap, Cardigans, Calexico, All Natural Lemon and Lime Fla, Buried At Sea, Buffalo Daughter, Antony &; The Johnsons, 45 Grave, Crosby, Stills &; Nash, Credence Clearwater Revival, Arto Lindsay, Alien Sex Fiend, 5.6.7.8's, Darius, Daft Punk, Angelo Badalamenti, A Silver Mt. Zion, Beethoven _ Gardiner, Beck, AC_DC, _Zoviet_France_, crass, Crash Worship, D'Angelo, Cypress Hill, Cex, Celtic Frost, 3-11 Porter, Just Like Heaven, Anna Ternheim, Alpha Project, Bjork, bauhaus, Bathory, Bis Ende, Lambchop, Lamb, Lalo Shiffrin, Laika, Ladytron, Kraftwerk, kmfdm, Kings Of Leon, King Crimson, king, Kim Hiorthøy, Clinic, Clan of Xymox, Alexander 'Skip' Spence, Eagles, Nailbomb, Dub Narcotic Sound System Meet, Brian Jonestown Massacre, Bonnie Prince Billy bel canto, Beherit, Dolly Parton, Disiplin, Disciples of Mockery, David Sylvian, Blink 182, Black Sabbath, Anglagård, Amon Tobin, Diamanda Galas, Depeche Mode, Dennis Coffey, Christian Death Cinerama, Cinema Strange, All Natural Lemon And Lime Flavors, Aphex Twin, Aerial M, Beans, Beachwood Sparks, adam and the ants, Bryan Ferry &; Roxy Music, B,ruce Springsteen, Murder At The Registry, Dire Straits, Dinosaur Jr, Dietrich Buxtehude, Christian Death, Displacement, applied ignorance, Rebound III, hiddenforbidden, Rat Tatter Tat, The Murder Fling,
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| Who I Am: | Nowadays I seem to be alone all the time, Only making time for the very few people that matter, my music, my dying art & my love for nature. I just recently left 2 bands I was in... a psychadelic band called The Soundhead, and a new project I was working on called Bad Habit Rabbit (blend of Black Sabbath, dark 80's minimal and Early Christian Death). Why did I quit you may be wondering? I really dont know... I dont seem to know why I do alot of what I do nowadays; I just know I have to do them, and thats all i need to know for the time being. Ill pay the consequences later. Im still writting and creating music, absorbing and gathering inspiration from shifting muses from time to time. I have alot of ideas & clips recorded and stored, just waiting for the right time. But for the moment it is in limbo, syncronized w/ my life. After all, it is in fact a part of me.. I've thought about starting a band, but my life is too unstable for that commitment at the moment, and I dont like to start things Im not sure I can finish, especially now since Im planning on moving away. Im in the process of writting the next chapter in my life, where the first paragraph gives mention of me moving to Mahnattan! Im sick of the old chapters, Ive learned what I could from them, and now its time for me to move on. Hanging on to them only brings misery! My head is too clouded, my heart is too weak, my emotions sway, and my spirit crushed and in the process of reinvention, but my soul is intact; I dont know how. Like Morrisey said, "see the life Ive had could make a good man turn bad"... well, it really isnt that bad, but it feels like it!!!. There is just nothing left for me here. No hope, just broken dreams. What is today for me, wont be tomorrow, and so forth. All in good time I suppose. I try to learn something new everyday; whether it be which street is a 1 way, to a new word or even better, to feel something new, however miniscule it might seem to anyone, something new is something new, a long as I keep cramming any sort of knowledge in to my cranium which most studies show is only occupied by 20% of its capacity, or around there... Did you know that the ..1 source of litter in America is cigarette butts - (http://www.cigarettelitter.org/) Its so true if you think about it. Anyway, thats an example of some of the things that lurk in this brain of mine. Im still trying to figure many things out, Im learning as I go along as are many of you. I dont know where the heck Im going, I dont know what Im doing, I dont know what it is I want anymore. I used to think I did, I thought I had it, but life has a way of laughing at your face. There's a country song I heard on the radio that said, "and if you want to hear god laugh, tell him your plans!", and if he exists, thats just what he did. Nothing is for certain Ive learned, as optimistic as I was about life. Still a little part of me refuses to lie down and accept what is given to me... Id rather attempt to make my own destiny, but there is much I dont know. What I do know is Im in search of something... My little piece of magic, the thing that will bring a smile to my face and make me want to live. I dont know what it is, but Ill know when I find it... and i will find it, or die trying; and in that sentence, I define to you my life. Music is the one thing that is for sure in my life, it has my never ending love. The one thing that will forever remain a constant. Lovers will come and go, live and die; but music is 4 ever. It will always be there for me to show me the way, it will never give up on me, or choose someone else over me, it will never turn its back on me. I dig going to see live bands, even if i hate the music, i will always appreciate it. Music is my savior, it has proven itself time and time again. I go see live music every chance I get. Im into Deathrock, early 80's goth (Though I find alot of goth music nowadays to be pretty cheesy), Industrial, psychadelic rock, Minimal, Noise, Indie, some psychobilly... Alot of sad songs for some reason. Do I listen to sad songs cause Im sad, or am I sad because I listen to sad songs? Fuck if I know.. Im pretty open to all kinds of music though. Some of my favs are Early Christian Death, Phantom Limbs, Early Depeche, Vanishing, Dead Meadow, Front 242, Bloody Dead & Sexy, Psychadelic Furs, Brian Jonestown Massacre, Bauhaus, Early Love & Rockets, The Birthday Party, Attrition, John Spencer Blues Explosion, Alien Sex Fiend... Shit.. this will take 4ever... you get the freaking picture, there are too many bands to mention all... The last band I saw that really knocked my socks off was "the phantom limbs". I adore the Poetry of Rozz Williams. He speaks the truths that many refuse to believe or dont allow themselves to feel out of fear. I understand... I try to live my life by one golden rule, and so far its been a fair rule engulfed by honor, and principal. "Do on to others as you would have done to you", and so I do. Im respectful, easygoing and dont care much for bullshit, dont need it, keep it away... Ive had my fill, and Im exfoliated by its putridness, it has blackened my heart in many degrees and colors of the spectrum. My life is fairly simple, and I dont get caught up in things that dont matter. Sometimes less is more. I believe form follows function however there are exceptions. Im a firm believer that if you cant handle the answer, dont ask the question, easy as that!! Im into Existentialism and simplicity in the purest form possible. I enjoy knives and swords, Like to write lyrics and create music. I like taking walks at night (especially after it rains and its cold and windy) it calms my spirit, soothes my soul, and cleanses my mind. I enjoy pain in my own way, and welcome anyone who can appreciate it. I like the Occult, Im an accomplished artist, I like to see empty streets and dark hallways. I see beauty in death and in many aspects I suppose I long for it (if you want to get all Freudian and shit on me). Ive seen the beauty and horror of love. Ive experienced it with my own heart. In a way i see it as my death and rebirth. I know now why some dont make it out alive. Ive gone through the whole emotional spectrum that comes with it, the light and the dark... Im a survivor of the best & worst scenarios; still nurturing the wounds inflicted on me, healing with every passing day. Scarred for life with what I know Ill carry w/ me and the memories that will haunt me the rest of my life. Songs that will remind me of a specific day & time, a golden memory saved for eternity within a song... Lessons well learned; I know myself better for it I suppose, and in a way a better person. Would I do it again? Without thinking twice about it. I believe in love. Im a hopeless romantic. Once youve been to the mountain top, there aint no coming back!! LOL... I loved with all my heart. I liked being in love, and Im not embarassed to admit that (as gay as it sounds). I loved hard and I would say I loved well... All of my being put in one soul... I guess Im a gambler in that way... Its a big risk giving yourself completely to one person like that, trusting them with your soul... Being vulnerable to them in everyway possible... I always tripped out how no one else could make you feel the way that one person could. I think theres alot of Irony in that and I find it funny. So I loved and lost. thats how the game is played... I just hope I can feel that way about someone again. It feels like its an impossible thing, but I know It will happen. Well, I certainly hope so anyway. All is fair in Love and war. Ive broken hearts and had mine broken as well.. It hurts doing both but it hurts alot more when its your own, but I dont regret nor apologize for any of it, thats life. Like the people used to say when i was a kid... "Thats life in the barrio Ay!!" LOL... a little ghetto humor for those who can appreciate it. Ive done some things I shouldnt have, Ive let some things go that have hurt me to my core. Gotta roll with the punches. Gotta suck it up! Yeah, i have my fetishes and kinkiness-perhaps some more or less extreme than others, but Im reserved and exclusive, those who see that side of me are very few, almost non-existent; and if let in, are held in the highest regard by me. I have my mischievousness at certain times, and I indulge in what some people might think as Taboo, Life is too short not to enjoy what is given to you.. Ill try anything once.. As Rozz Williams said, "Accept the gift of Sin. The gift of Pleasure..." nuff said. I can be a flake at times, Im spontaneous and even more spontaneous with the right person. I love last minute camping trips.. The kind where you say lets go camping, and youre out the door with your camping gear within 1 hour. Im an outdoorsman who hates the sun... Yeah, unheard of; right? I enjoy snowboarding... the best feeling is getting off the lift on top of the biggest run... and then looking down and taking a deep breath and going for it... Yeah baby!!! Euphoria!! a little Jamiroquai "Light Years" for the ride down on the headphones phones and its all good... Lately Ive had this thing with discovering the best hole in the wall tacos. I love going to hole in the wall restaurants... Tacos and beer!!! Mmmm. I recently signed up for a fencing class... yeah yeah, I know what youre thinking.. that so gay! oh yeah, well if ever you and I are in a situation where we need to kill or be killed with a sword; Ill have a better chance than you, and thats all I have to say about that! Besides, Ive always wanted to learn how to fence, since i was alittle kid w/ my neighbor pretending i was Zorro, any guys out there remember that?
One of my favorite things to do is go to the movies alone... at first it was a bit depressing, but then something changed... I really dont mind being by myself... I always go to Coldstone and get the "GOTTA HAVE IT" size with Wht. Chocolate Ice cream and French Vanilla. For mixins I get Oreo Cookies, Almonds and Chocolate Syrup... topped with Whipped cream.. MMMmmmmmm... Yeah... Im a pig.. i eat it all.. most of the times its finished by the end of the previews.. and just to let you know, I look forward and enjoy the previews.. sometimes theyre better than the actual movie. LOL. People in the theatre who see me walk in alone always seem to see me as a loser for going by myself to the movies alone... at least thats the feeling I get, Im no psychic, Im just assuming; but their eyes always give it away... who know, I could be wrong and some of them might be thinking Im cute... HA.. Hey, its not impossible you know!!... The way I see it, theyre the loosers for not being able to do that... dont trip on me... trip on yourself my friend just cause you cant go to the movies alone... Uhmmm, damn.. i guess I have alot of harbored aggression and insecurities huh?... but who doesnt. Im my own person, if you dig it, then dig. If not, then I wish you well. Ive dealt with all sorts of people and their baggage... Heck, Ive even had some dump theirs on me. I have my own to deal with. Ive become a different person because of situations like that; and though I like that in some ways, I dont in many other ways and for many different reasons, so don't infect me with your decease, Im still trying to find a cure for mine and I cant handle anymore. Im a pretty good judge of character, but no one is perfect. Some people say I posses an old soul, and I have to agree. People seem to look at me and get scared off or intimidated in some way. I dont know why... Im a goof ball when it comes down to it. Im real, sincere and down to earth, and probably the easiest person to talk to & get along with... One look into my eyes and you'll see. Anyway, thats pretty much ME!... in a nutshell! just in case you were curious enough to read through all this! |
| Looking For: | THE BEAUTY IN DEATH: Empty streets in the wee hours of night, remind me of a ghostown. Bloodstained skidmarks echo to tease, it sets my soul at ease. Dead leaves arroused by a cold breeze, tango with a dead tree. Its all the same to me, cause its the beauty in death i see. Artwork by the side of the road, free admission to all attending parties. An exhibit many will find misleading, painted in red still bleeding. The brilliance of the unknown artist, many turn their head in discust. Illuminated by the sun like a painting near a dim lamp; roadkill by the offramp. Pitch black hallways, eyecandy to raise my hairs. A sight built to remind me, the reality that no one cares... My curse no suited for the weak at heart. I dont wish it on anybody else but me. When all else fails there will always be, the beauty in death to see. ~ ME
THE BEAUTY IN DEATH: Empty streets in the wee hours of night, remind me of a ghostown. Bloodstained skidmarks echo to tease, it sets my soul at ease. Dead leaves arroused by a cold breeze, tango with a dead tree. Its all the same to me, cause its the beauty in death i see. Artwork by the side of the road, free admission to all attending parties. An exhibit many will find misleading, painted in red still bleeding. The brilliance of the unknown artist, many turn their head in discust. Illuminated by the sun like a painting near a dim lamp; roadkill by the offramp. Pitch black hallways, eyecandy to raise my hairs. A sight built to remind me, the reality that no one cares... My curse no suited for the weak at heart. I dont wish it on anybody else but me. When all else fails there will always be, the beauty in death to see. ~ ME
BAD HABIT RABBIT: Theres nothing to do, so i pull out a knife from many. The color that soothes me flows deep within my veins. Moonlight shimmers off my rusty blade, but tonight its the sight of my blood that I crave, Oh how Ive strayed. I hold my arm real steady. I push down when I'm ready. And then i wake up with a grin and a razor in hand. They call me bad... Bad Habit Rabbit. My line for fetish goes around the block. It's not my fault, I was born out of wedlock. I like cuts on my back. I get turned on by black leather straps. And an occasional shock never seems to hurt anyone. They call me bad..... Bad Habit Rabbit. Silver spikes and chains, drive me insane. The way they cause pain and restrain... its always the same game. But dont put a whip in my hands cause oh boy... Ill have you down on all fours filled with joy. And youll scream out for more as the blood drips down your back. They call me bad..... they call me bad..... Bad Habit Rabbitt. ~ME
THE NEW FRONTIER: my Pain, the new frontier, for many their last resort, so effortless and futile. life's redundancies, have made way into my soul, w/ my muse enthroned in stone, like me so alone. Swimming in bloody waters, Land seems so far away, i dont know how Im still alive... this is the new - the new frontier. Obscure malevolence, come knock on shut doors, like whores they please then leave, still its only a tease. Secrets between smiles I see, Smiles between secrets for a fee, useless reminders, of how things seem to be. digging my own grave, in my own way, ive died so many times, i dont know why Im still alive... this is the new - the new frontier. I want to fall asleep and never wake up, and my blood turn a deeper red, I make love to my own shadow, my only true friend till the end. ~ME |
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